Stay Strong, Ainul

Sumpah aku rasa nak menangis je lately! Tak tau nak luahkan kat mana.

Parents? I won't be seeing them in a month. Sisters? I don't feel that they could keep my secrets. Friends? ..................

Serious. Aku rasa mcm nak sakit jiwa. Nak call Iqqah, aku segan. Nak call Su, dia tak reply whatsapp aku. Tak tau lah nak buat mcm mana.

Kali ni punya stress, aku dapat rasakan yang aku boleh jadi mentally ill. Asal balik kolej je mesti emo. Asal malam-malam je, mesti nak meroyan kat twitter.

But that's the thing. I can no longer make twitter as my diary or psychiatrist. There's too many followers. Tanak lah plak nnti diorg rasa annoyed plak ngan aku

Kadang-kadang rasa mcm nak ketuk kepala plak kat dinding.

And frankly speaking, I'm tired of all this BS. Aku mcm dah lupa mcm mana nk jadi bahagia. I just rasa happy klau kat class je. But during weekends, klau tak balik rumah, seriously tak tau nk buat apa. And time tu lah dahi aku secara tak langsung akan berkerut.

ok, ni je post for tonight. See ya later

Camcheering with Qen!

Takde motif pun post ni. herherher

Just camcheering with Qen at library just now. Just wanted to test my laptop's webcam for the 1st time. Hihi

Family Dinner

Last Saturday, lepas habis pertandingan kompang, malam tu saya & Atin pun balik rumah sbb esoknya, hari Ahad ada family dinner. Ausz's treat. Yayyy! Of courselah happy gila bila orang belanja, kan?

Our family dinner was at Fish Market Manhattan, Setia City Mall. Ke Manhattan Fish Market? Ntah apa-apalah, asalkan korang faham. Ngehngeh

The dinner was great! Maybe sbb dah lama xde family gathering, so rasa mcm best lah gak bila semua orang brkumpul.

And that day, I wore a tribal shawl. Abah tegur, kata " Tiah dah makin feminine sekarang ni, eh? "

So, I took it as a compliment perhaps? Hahahaha. Yelah, maybe abah susah nak percaya kot that his tomboyish daughter, the daughter that he thought the least that would change, dah berubah jadi semakin feminine. 

Then he said yg baju I mcm formal. But i'm not sure which clothes he was mentioning. Its either the clothes I wore during class photoshoot or during the dinner (because he followed my Instagram too!)

So, these are some pics during the dinner. Enjoy! :D

But I think Abah mcm agak happy + sedih at the same time. Happy sbb semua anak-anak dia brkumpul. Sedih because he realized how fast time flies. Semua anak-anak dah besar, dah berubah. Especially me. The daughter that he always treat like a boy. The only tomboyish daughter who he taught would never change. Not in a million years.

BUT... During dinner everyone had a great time! Everyone was enjoying themselves.

Last Friday

Yah Yah.... Saya memang suka lambat post benda. Benda ni dh jadi last Friday but hari ni baru nak post. Hihi

Actually xde apa pun. This post just pasal me and my friends pegi outing je sbb time tu our biostats class got cancelled. So, kitorg pun keluarlah. KONONNYA nak cari baju utk dinner kolej. Haha

100th Post!

This is my 100th post! Yeayyy...

xde motif pun sebenarnya. Just ingatkan nak post something but mcm tak sempat je. After this ada class Man & Earth. So, rasanya 15 min utk update blog memang tak cukup.

BUT NEVERTHELESS

I will post a new post (err ??) later today.

so, please bear with me :)

THANK YOU

Biohealth's Family Day

Okay, sebenarnya cerita ni agak lama. Dah ketinggalan zaman. Last weekend, ada Family Day for Biohealth's students & alumni kat Glory Beach Resort, PD.

Semua batch kena buat persembahan including the seniors. For my batch, kitorang buat sajak sambil berlakon & tarian. At first aku tak dapat pegi sebab ada aktiviti kolej. Then tetiba aktiviti tu ditunda, so aku amik lah kesempatan nak pegi holiday dengan rakan-rakan baruku (ceeewaaah)

Mula-mula aku amik lakonan sbb saje je nak try berlakon. But then, tetiba Feezy tarik diri dari tarian sbb sexy sangat. Hahaha. So, Asiah ajaklah aku suruh join tarian sekali. Aku mmg eager klau bab mencuba benda yg baru ni ;P

And kebetulan plak, mmg aku nk try pun menari. So, I've took part in both performances : Tarian & Lakonan (nmpk tak ketamakkan aku disitu? :P)

  Practice Time

 ni time tarian : Az, Qen, Ara, Nabila, me and Asiah

 Qen, Ara & I saje je nk menggedik! Haha

And ni plak gambar before kitorg bertolak ke PD

 bersama Ily & Qen

 Kak Syaz

Sukaneka

Lepas smpai kitorg pun check-in and makan-makan dulu before berkumpul kat court. And time prjalanan ke PD smpai kat bilik, ada lah beberapa incident yg membuatkan aku panas hati sikit. So, mood nk excited tu mulai pudaarrrr. But bukan panas hati dgn sesiapa. Panas hati dgn diri sendiri jeee. Plus, cuaca time tu pun mmg terik, so mcm luar dalam lah panasssss. Xde mood nk buat apa2 langsung.

1st, dalam cuaca yg terik membahang, bad mood dan tekak yg sgt dahaga, boleh pulakk some people tu bikin gua lagi panasssss. Eventhough I've tried to hide it but tipulah klau kata my friends tak perasan. Hehe

1st game : Bola Beracun (xde gmbr)

2nd game : Lari ikat kaki dgn partner

Sblm start larikk

Pandai saya berlakon disini kan? Hahaha. Padahal dlm hati, hnya Allah je yg tau

Before Rehersal

Akibat kebosanan yg melampau, kami pun ber-camcheering disitu (camcheering eh, bkn camwhore :P)

With Az & Asiah

Dinner

Memandangkan ramai tetamu yg tak sampai lagi, kami pun buatlah kerja sendiri. Hehe

1st performance : Sketsa (Lakonan + Sajak)

- For this 1st performance, I terpaksa pakai baju jubah and pakaian biasa dulu sbb outfit utk tarian mmg tak sesuai utk dipakai time lakonan psl Gaza ni. And trust me when I say 'mmg tak sesuai sangaaatttt'. Anyway, saya jadi zionis dlm lakonan tu. Tgk muka pun dah tau muka ni jenis sesuai jd org jahat ;P

With Ara & Nabila

2nd performance : Tarian

Lepas habis berlakon, cepat-cepat saya pegi toilet tukar baju, tukar tudung - dari mcm alim (jubah, tudung bawal) ke modern (peplum, striking jeans) - bila difikirkan balik, mcm hipokrit pun ada. Hahahahaha

And semua gambar-gambar ni diambil after our dance

 Kat belakang tu Feezy

 Nabila aka Yoona and me!

Posing uollsss

After dinner

Last Day in PD!

 Kami tak plan pun nk jd tv3. Kebetulan semata-mata

Conclusion : I've had so much fun!

Credit to Yoona!