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Hey everyone... Oppss.. I mean, assalamualaikum :)

Well, its Thursday. And only now I have opened a book to study. KONONNYA.

So, selama 6 hari yang lepas, saya tak sentuh buku langsung. Read it again.
TAK. SENTUH. BUKU. LANGSUNG

Hebat tak? Hebat kan? Hebat kan? -.-
Pffftttt. Jangan nak perasan sangatlah Ainul oii. Klau time exam nnti kau boleh jawab dengan betul, tu baru hebat. Tapi klau tak study & tak boleh jawab, takde gunanya, ye dok?

So, today I tried to study/revise Modern Physics. But ......... Can't concentrate

Don't know why. But I just. Can't. Concentrate.

Gambar2 dibawah ini hanyalah sekadar hiasan. Terima kasih

27th December

27th December........ Lagi sebulan umurku bakal mencecah 20-an. Bakal memasuki puluhan. TIDAAAKKKK

Aku bakal menjejaki peringkat hidup yang lebih dewasa, yang lebih serius, yang lebih matang. Dan semestinya yang lebih stressful.

Ya Allah.... Berikanlah aku dapat menempuh kehidupan aku yang bakal datang ini dengan mudah. Berikanlah rezekiku semakin melimpah luah dan aku semakin bahagia. Amin

Rebellious

Ya Allah... What is this feeling? I can feel my old self trying to emerge again. No! I don't want that to happen

My rebellious side is trying to take over me. Suddenly I have the urge to swear, to leave my prayer, disobeying Islamic laws, depressed. And I'm full of anger!

Allah... Why am I so angry all the time? I don't want the old me again. I want the new me. The new me that I've met in matrics. The new me that I love!

I don't want to be in darkness again. No, not anymore. Sekali pun dah cukuplah... I don't want to go through that all over again

I have a friend

Saya adalah sorang kawan ni. Dia ada blog

Buttttt.... Dia dah lama tak update blog dia. Lama sangat. Saya nak tauuu ceritanya. Saya nak tau perkembangan dia sbb saya rindu dia. Haha

Last dia update awal bulan ni. But that's it. Lepas tu dah xde update dah

AWAK, Tolonglah update blog awak ye? Saya rinduuuuuuu *winkwink* ;)

Week 14th :D

Yeayyyy! Sekarang dah week 14! Which means, that its our last week before study week! Our last class for all subjects. Weeeeeee

So far, week 14th ni oklah. Better than the previous weeks. WAYYY BETTER. And I hope it will stay that way. In Shaa Allah :)

So, English, Cell Biology, S&T, APK and Modern Physics class has ended. Sekarang ni yang tinggal just class Population Biology, Lab and tutorial S&T je.

Week ni agak memenatkan sikitlah sebab asyik ada test je. Sangat penat sebenarnya. But nak buat apa kan? Dah lumrah hidup sebagai seorang student. Memang tak boleh lari dari test/exam

Tetiba rasa macam budak nak amik SPM balik je sbb banyak sangat test. Haiihhh :/

Hey y'all

Rasanya mcm dah lama tak post. Hikhik

Al maklumlah... Tak tau lah nak post apa lagi.

But just a random question, pernah tak korang rasa yang maybe somewhere out there, ada orang stalk korang? And by stalking, I mean diorang nak tau perkembangan korang melalui fb, twitter etc... Bukannya stalker as in stalker gila-gila sampai orang nak mandi pun tak senang. Hahahaha... Okay, lawak hambar -.-

When you're sad .........

Think that Allah knows the BEST

ALLAH knows what is best for you. Eventhough sometimes you don't like it, or you think you can't wait any longer, just have faith. Have faith in Allah.

Allah always know what's best for you :)

Home is where our heart is

Hye guys. I'm home! Saje je nk bgtau. Hehehe

Kata orang, "Home is where your heart is"

Well, since my heart is with my family, then I can safely say that I am home.

Oh my have on earth! I miss you ever so much :D

Depressed

Macam mana nak hilangkan perasaan depressed ni?

Lately, saya makan banyak. And saya rasa macam makin banyak saya makan, saya jadi lebih depressed. No wonderlah orang kata orang gemuk selalunya akan cenderung jadi more depressed than normal people.

I need to run. I need to jog. I need to get things out of my chest!

Terperap!

NAK BALIKKKK!

Seriously rasa nak balik. Terkongkonglah hidup kat sini. Rasa terperap je

Klau ada duit, takpelah. At least boleh lepak or belanja Atin keluar. Ni plak, duit pun haprak. Memang duduk jelah dalam bilik ni. Termenung. Bersendirian. Tak. Buat. Apa-apa.

Kerja? Kerja memanglah ada. But tau tak kebosanan asyik kena mngadap report/assignment je? Tetiba dah rasa stress balik. I feel like I'm in KMPh all over again. Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

Luahan Hati yang Tiada Kesudahan

Saya tak tau lah kenapa saya sering dipinggirkan, sering ditinggalkan

Sejak dari bangku sekolah lagi, I'm always forever alone. Saya xde pun kawan yang betul-betul nak lepak dengan saya. Ya, bila kita tweet ckp psl xde kawan, semua pun terus nak hotsentap, rasa mcm kita tak appreciate diorg, terus kata they will always be at our side. But masalahnya, pernah ke diorg memahami aku?

Yes, I admit yang I pun bukanlah kawan yang baik. But why? Kenapa saya tak boleh jadi kawan yang baik? Sbb saya sering dikelilingi oleh kawan-kawan yg berperangai sebegitu. Kawan dimulut, orang asing dihati.

And yes, I admit actually saya lebih prefer kawan-kawan matriks drp kawan convent (kecuali Mimie. Dia je kwn convent yg best)

So here, I am trying to start a new life. Making new friends. But apa diorang buat? For the first few months, semua nmpak indah. Then after that, barulah saya mngerti erti persahabatan

Saya penatlah. Penat sangat asyik ditinggalkan. Asyik saya je yang berlari mengejar korang. Korang mcm xde effort nak tunggu saya. We're suppose to be friends. Sepatutnya korang kenalah inform or ajak semua org so that xde sesiapa yang terasa. Ni tak. Dah berbulan sebenarnya aku perasan tapi buat bodoh je. Dah berbulan aku makan hati tapi biarkan je. Dah berbulan aku ........

Haish, suka hati koranglah weh. Seriously, aku dah PENAT.
PENAT MENGEJAR KORANG

Hope one day, you'll realise this

Week 12th

Last week was the 12th week. What can I say about that week?

ITS BULLSHOOT, I TELL YA!

With the assignmentsssssss, lab reportsss, problemsss, it was one problematic week for me! ~.~

And this incoming week is gonna be the 13th week.

13. What a beautiful number. But then again, it is the week where I have to submit all my works and have to sit for a test. So, nah. Eventhough it is a beautiful number, but I can tell you this. Its gonna be a hell week for me.

THIS YEAR'S DECEMBER SUCKS!

Spiritless

Woke up with this uneasy feeling. What is this feeling anyway?

Dreamt of softball again. Just now. This afternoon. I think its because before I went to sleep, I've read a post on Kurshiah's group about the girls hockey team made it to the semi

My dream? Although I want it to happen so bad, but I knew it won't. Because dream is just a dream. It won't become a reality. And sometimes, I forget that :/

Anyway, CONGRATS TO KK3's GIRLS HOCKEY SQUAD!

YOU GUYS ARE THE BEST!

Quote

My favourite quote for today is,

Be too busy to have time for regrets
- Angela Wright

Dear Stalkers,

Macamlah aku ada stalkers. Haha

Anyway, if you're one of my stalkers, I'll recommend you to read my archive post from 2010 and you'll see the difference in my writing skill then and now.

Thank You :)

Hati ini ...... Kosong.

" Me and my heart, we've got issues "

Ya Allah, tak taulah kenapa lately saya rasa kesunyian sangat.

Tiba-tiba, saya dapat merasakan kekosongan dalam hati ni. Dulu, saya mengisi kekosongan ini dengan membuat benda yang saya suka spt main game, main softball

But since video game and softball dah xde, saya rasa sunyi sangat :(

And saya tak tau, kenapa saya rasa attached dgn dia. Kitorg xde chemistry pun, tapi rasa mcm nak dia jumpa saya, nak dia perasan saya, nak dia tegur saya.

Maybe I'm crazy, perhaps. But honestly, its killing me inside!

Kenapa Allah wujudkan perasaan mcm ni? I don't want to go through this again. Sudah cukuplah sekali ku terseksa, cukuplah sekali ku berada dalam kegelapan. Aku tak mahu perkara mcm ni berulang

Kenapa perasaan ini wujud? Kenapa perasaan ini wujud? Kenapa perasaan ini wujud?

Tidur tak cuci kaki

Itulah dia nama post utk hari ni ye.

Tulah akibat sebelum tidur, tak basuh kaki. Kan dah dapat nightmare semalam. Tetiba mimpi kena dera lah, mimpi ada ular lah, mimpi hampir kena culik lah. Hahaha

Yg mimpi psl dera tu, saya & beberapa org terperangkap kat dlm 1 rumah and kitorg try nk escape dari .....
Entahlah, mak tiri kowt sbb kitorg mcm ada pertalian.

Then time kitorg nk escape tu, ada yg dah terselamat, ada yg masih berada dlm rumah. Me? I'm in the middle ;)
Hampir nak panjat pagar, then, BAM.
Tetiba nmpak muka mak tiri tgh gertak nak keluarkan ular dari satu lubang.

Masa konfrotasi tu, mak tiri tu adalah sedikit sebanyak psycho aku sikit. Hehe. Then, ntah dari mana, tetiba ada segerompolan lelaki berbadan sasa sambil pegang tali nak ikat mangsa, datang. Dlm mimpi tu, aku sempat lari balik msuk rumah and cepat2 kunci pintu. Mak tiri yg ada kat luar tu terus kena grab dgn penculik, lepas tu kena ikat. And then, Allahualam.... Sbb saya terjaga. Hehe

Masa bangun tu dah nak pkl 3 am. Check phone, trnampak notification dr En Sham. Rupanya ada budak accident pkl 11 lebih mlm smlm.

So, adakah mimpi saya dan notification psl budak tadi ada kaitan?

Allahualaammm

Kawan ke?

Saya ada cerita. Saya adalah seorang "kawan" ni, yang saya tak rasa dia macam kawan.

Hati dia sangat keras. Luaran nampak macam lembut, tapi dalaman hanya Allah sahaja yang tau apa masalah dia.

Masalah saya dengan dia, dia suka buat muka batu lately. Dan saya seriously tak suka orang yang buat muka batu. Dahlah saya ni jenis panas baran, but saya pendamkan je. Nak buat apa kan, dah orang tu tak perasan muka dia muka ketat.

Taulah kau tu popular kan? Tak perlu lah nak ketaattt sangat muka tu

Tak kisah lah weyhh. Aku boleh survive klau hidup bersendirian pun. In shaa Allah. Mungkin ada hikmah kau tunjukkan sifat sebenar kau. Supaya aku tak tertipu lagi dengan orang macam kau

Its true you know, what people say

LOOKS CAN BE DECEIVING

Mimpi lagi?

Yes, malam semalam mimpi lagi. But this time mimpi kena paksa masuk tarik tali untuk SUKMUM.

Apa kejadahnya? Saya pun tak pasti.

Tapi dalam mimpi tu, saya & beberapa orang kena paksa masuk pertandingan tarik tali. And saya kena duduk depan sekali. Our leader yang menjerit suruh tarik tali tu, adalah tak lain tak bukan, ----

Faham-faham jelah. Haha

Then, lepas saya masuk, tetiba kitorg menang (ingat, ni hanyalah mimpi semata-mata). Leader pun puji kitorg. Lepas tu saya dikeluarkan jap, ganti dgn orang lain. Tak ingatlah group mimpi saya menang ke tak, but yang saya ingat, leader mcm start mnjerit and start masukkan saya balik dlm group. Tarik punya tarik, boleh rasa kepayahan menarik tali tu walaupun ianya hanyalah sebuah mimpi, last-last kitorg menang.

Then, saya pun terjaga.
THE END :)

It's a sign, perhaps?

You know, I had a weirdest dream last night. Well, its not the weirdest... But just... Ermmm... Weird?

Its like this, I was asleep and had a beautiful dream. I can't recall what it was, but I remember that I was happy for a moment. Suddenly, I heard a familiar voice. A really REALLY FAMILIAR voice

She told me to get up!

Her : Ainul! Bangun cepat! GAME DAH NAK START

Then, I was awake. Just like that. I check my phone to see what time is it and it was then that I saw her comment notification on Facebook. I think it was around 3 am or 4.30 am something

And what I'm trying to say is, that there's a saying says if you're dreaming around midnight, let say around 3 am to 5 am, it is possible that the dream will come true or the dream is a sign.

But for me, I think it's just a plain coincidence. Maybe I overthink about the SUKMUM thingy. That's why I dreamt she was shouting at me. Haha

WHAT IS LIFE WITHOUT SOFTBALL? :/





Ha! Poyo je. Tak sampai seminggu xde sofbol, kau dah gila meroyan. GILA. Haha

Reserves Players, you're still my no 1!

To Fatin, Aiman, Iman, Effa and Fizah

Eventhough korang just pemain simpanan for this year's SUKMUM, but remember that, you guys deserve wayyy better than this! I have to admit, actually korang lagi hebat dari aku and korang lagi layak utk jadi first 9th. Klau ikutkan, aku nak trade-in tempat sekejap dgn korg. Sekejap je. Betul. Komitmen korang yg x berbelah bahagi, especially Aiman & Fatin, mmg aku rasa korg deserves jadi main players.

But since seniors lebih diutamakan sbb diorg lagi tau gameplay softball, korg janganlah sedih eh. Aku tau korg selalu rasa aku selalu dpt tempat dlm softball, akulah pelapis Kak Qilah, akulah yang pandai bermain, akulah rapat ngan Kak Qilah.

But trust me. Its not true! Not one bit. Aku bukannya pelapis Kak Qilah sbb aku x cukup layak, I sucks at softball and lastly, aku mmg tak pernah rapat dgn dia eventhough korg nmpk kitorg MACAM rapat
(And please aku bukan kaki bodek)

Korang sendiri nmpk kan what happened time SUKMUM haritu. Seriously, aku pun rasa marah sangat ngan diri aku smpaikan rasa mcm x bleh nk memaafkan diri sendiri

Enough about that. What I'm trying to say is, sabar ye kawan2 ku. Kita chill dulu. Tahun depan masih ada, in shaa Allah. And aku harap sangat2 korg still akan main :)

On the day itself

For those who want to read the whole story of 3rd residential college women's softball, checkout this link

http://marshmallowlembut.blogspot.com/2012/12/good-job-torpedo.html?m=1

Its from the pitcher's perspective

Should I?

Should I try? Should I try? Should I try the try-out?

But I'm still in my phobia state. I don't know whether I should try to join them. But heart says yes, but my mind says no.

Especially after what had happened on last Saturday, on SUKMUM, I don't think I could handle that kind of feeling again

But I really, REALLY do want to polish my skills. I want to learn. I want to be better than before. I want to be really good at something. I want to be great at something! I WANT TO DISCOVER MY NATURAL TALENT

My fear is that by the time I'll realize it, it will be too late. Like softball :(

1st December 2012

This year's December was not a good start for me :(

Yesterday, on the 1st December, a SUKMUM for softballs game was held. To make the story short, we didn't make it to the finals. Oh heck, we didn't even make it to semi-final! And the worst part is, it is all because of me! Can you imagine what it feels like to let all your teammates down? To be the worst player on the team? Who has cost the team to lose? TO DISAPPOINT YOUR CAPTAIN? If you know what it feels like, then you'll know how frustrated I am, and how I mad at myself for that.

I've got no one to blame but myself. I should have tried harder, I should have catch the ball, I should have hit the ball

Sukmum

Hati berdengup kencang sementara menunggu solat fardhu Subuh dan kawasan2 yg sewaktu dengannya. Haha

Okay, seriously right now, I can feel my heart pounding like its gonna burst out! My heart starts racing, my blood starts rushing in, adrenaline starts to kick in. Oh God, I can't remember the last time I have this kind of feeling.

Ya Allah, Ya Tuhanku. Tolong permudahkan segala uruasan kami pada esok hari dan mudah-mudahan permainan kami dirahmati serta tolong benarkan & berikan aku dan pasukanku berjaya mengondol pingat emas sekaligus menjuarai sukan sofbol wanita utk Sukmum pada tahun ini. AMIN

AMIN, Amin, Ya Rabbal'alamin

Softball Update!

Semalam kitorg dah dpt jersey untuk match esok. Yeay! Excited gilaaaa sbb ni 1st time dpt jersey yang ada nama and nombor yang kita sendiri pilih. Heeeee :D

Lepas tu, update lah gmbr jersey kat twitter. Then dpt tweet mcm ni

HAHAHAHA. Kelakarlah kau Ekin!

Seriously, x perasan plak tu lucky number Taylor Swift. Time pilih nombor tu, aku main pilih je. Haha. But I really hope that, that number will bring good luck to me too as well :)

So, training semalam agak memenatkan but ok! Alhamdulilah it's okay. But kesian plak kat Captain sbb semalam dia pening kepala sbb kena hujan ptg tu. Then tetiba nk dijadikan cerita, semalam tetiba kitorg plak sucks! Banyak gila fumble. Including / especially me! Hukhuk :'(

So, dia mcm moody sikit lah sbb dah lah esok nk match, kitorg plak sucks, ditambah plak dgn sakit kepala dia. But fortunately, dia x mngamuk smlm. Hehe

Alternative

Alternative? For what? Haha.

Okay, alternative ni maknanya starting today onwards, I'll be updating my blog via mobile. Why? Because sadly, on 27th November 2012, but laptop has been stolen! Where? Outside biology laboratory. How? I left my laptop in my bag (how stupid of me) and by the time the lab class finished, I've found out that my lappy was not inside my bag pack.

Time tu, ada lah jgk rasa mcm nk menangis. Bukan rasa, memang air mata dah bergelinang dah kat mata tu. Haha. But then, I've toughen up and console myself. After that, I was okay :)

So, moral of the story :

DON'T EVER LEAVE YOUR BELONGING OUT OF YOUR SIGHT

Lesson learned! (The hard way of course)

Luahan Hati 2

Ya Allah.... Tolonglah. Aku dah penat asyik kena bash. Everyday pun asyik aku je yang kena mark. Dah aku x boleh nak baling bola jauh macam dulu, so what. Kenapa perlu kau nak down kan aku? Aku x kesah klau kau nk bash aku IF AND ONLY IF aku tak berusaha. Masalahnya, almost everyday kowt aku mintak Ayu tolong ajarkan cara nak baling dgn betul. Klau jarak dekat memang boleh but tak tau kenapa lately memang aku x boleh nak baling jauh-jauh. Mesti tak sampai.....

Allah.... Seriously I don't know who I can turn to besides from You, Ya Allah. Memang rasa sedih sangat lepas class theory tadi. Betuulll... I don't care if dia nak marah, but tolonglah jangan down kan aku sbb aku betul-betul dah berusaha. Even I don't know what's wrong with me :((

ALHAMDULILAH 2.0

Mark this day, Saturday, 24th November 2012, I hereby are not been accepted to Palapes. Woohooo!!
Alhamdulilah sangat-sangaaatttt...

Ya Allah, saya sangat bersyukur sekarang ni sbb ini adalah petunjuk semena-menanya. Actually saya memang 50-50 dlm bab palapes ni sbb 1st, saya nak Navy bukan Wataniah. 2nd, I want my life with my friends and family. 3rd, I want to stay in 3rd Residential College.

Dapat post from Palapes group in Facebook. Dia post name list org yg tersenarai masuk and dia kata "Nama yang xde tu x layak digelar Kadet Palapes Intake 3- " Hati memang tgh berdoa bg nama xde dlm list tu but since haritu dia dah confirm kata dpat masuk, dgn berat hati saya membuka list name tu, just to be sure. And Alhamdulilah.... seperti org Melayu lain, Cakap Tak Serupa Bikin , my name is not there! Memang bersyukur sangat-sangat lah time tu. Excited gila kottt.

Yang saya tak suka pasal benda ni sbb Isnin this week saya dah bg nama utk jadi sukarelawan hari Larian Gegar, tetiba last2 minute diorg post kata latihan start minggu ni. So nak xnk, terpaksalah saya tarik diri dari jadi sukarelawan. Then a day after that, on Wednesday, dpt plak post kata latihan dibatalkan this week and it's going to start on the 1st December. BAPAKLAH. Dahlah aku baru lepas tarik diri dari jadi volunteer sbb kata ada latihan. Then tetiba kata dibatalkan pulakkk. Start latihan time aku ada match sofbol utk SUKMUM plak tuh!

Memang time tu panas gila lah. Aku terpaksa reject audition STAKASH sbb Palapes, tak bg nama utk Feseni sbb Palapes, x bleh keluar dgn kwn sbb Palapes, then tarik diri dari jadi volunteer sbb Palapes jgk. Now, this? Memang lahh... Aku dah nekad nak ponteng latihan tu and pegi Sukmum jugak. By hook or by crook!

And now, alhamdulilah nama saya xde dlm list Palapes. ALHAMDULILAH... Kegembiraan yg x terhingga :')

So, xkan ada family outing yg tergadai, friends outing tg terkorban sbb benda ni :)

P/S : Tapi yang saya rasa mnyesal tu sbb saya mungkin, MUNGKIN jelah, mungkin diterima masuk dalam STAKASH & Feseni :(

Luahan Hati

This week has been a rough week for me. 1st, there's that. And now, there's this. Although I've tried to remain optimist during this week, but I can't. Seriously I can't.

In my softball team, there are 4 seniors. I think some of the seniors didn't like me. Why? I don't know. It's just my 'postulate'. Haha. But seriously, through their body language, I can see that they doesn't like me. But I don't blame them because frankly speaking, I don't like me either. I know that they doesn't know that I'm over-sensitive and maybe they doesn't realise that I want to be close with ALL my teammates, not only seniors. But I think that maybe they thought that I'm just being a kiss-up to the seniors. BUT NO! I'm not a kiss-up! I just want to be friends with you guys.
THESE ARE JUST IN MY OPINION. IT'S NOT TRUE IN REAL LIFE. THIS IS BASED ONLY OF WHAT I'M FEELING RIGHT NOW

But actually they are ok most of the time. This is just what I feel sometimes. No biggie.

And please guys, WHAT HAPPENS HERE, STAYS HERE

Ya Allah... I'm feeling down right now. Really REALLY down

Lately, semua benda serba-serbi tak kena. Rasa mcm ...... errgghh... Entah lah. I don't know how to explain it. But seriously, lately baru saya dapat tau yang kita memang tak boleh depend on people. STOP BEING SO CLINGY. Yeah.. I've learned my lesson. At the end of the day, you've only got yourself. So pick yourself up, stop being clingy and start to improve yourself.

Yes, it is a cruel world. But, that's what motivates us to become a better person. In Shaa Allah

Hi There :)

Olaaa!

Well, this entry xde apa-apa pun. Just a random post from someone who is bored. I noticed that lately my post mesti pasal sofbol. Kenapa ek? Hehe. Because I think I just found my passion ;)

Ok, enough about that!

..............................................

Actually, saya x tau nak tulis pasal apa. Facebook time cuti ni memang bosan sbb orang jarang online. Oh ya! I forgot to mention that I'm currently on mid-sem break. And when we're on a break, mesti nak balik rumah kan? And bila dah ada kat rumah mesti berat badan dah naik. Benci tau >.<

Another thing, maaf lah bila blog saya x secantik and se-gempak blog orang lain. Saya x reti lah mcm mana nk design blog ni. Teeheeeeeee ;D









P/S : Klau korg perasan kan, (klau korg perasan jelah) blog ni agak emotionless kan? Haha

Hari Atlet Kurshiah

SAYA DAH DIGELAR ATLET! WOOT! WOOT!

Hari atlet ni was on last Sunday, that is, on 4/11/12. At first pengetua suruh semua budak 1st year join the SERU program on the 3rd and 4th November, but my friends and I were busy on the 3rd. So, we decided to ditch the SERU program and went to the Hari Atlet Kurshiah on the 4th because the certificate will only be given to students who attend the program for 2 days. So, alang-alang kitorg x dpt sijil, better just join aktiviti kolej yg lain, ye dok? Hahaha (keluar loghat Pahang)

A day before this event, Captain dah pesan kat Aiman suruh bgtau kat kitorg yang juniors are responsible for creating a cheers. Kami pun buat lah cheers time tengah malam and berkampung kat bilik Fiza. We had so much fun during that night! Haha

The next day, we presented the cheers to the seniors. And they just laughed. Why? Sbb diorg rasa cheers tu mcm agk panjang and diorang x boleh catch up. Kami pun edit lah cheers itu sesingkat yang boleh and everybody's happy :)

Overall, that day was a happy and fun day for me. Jogging for 3.2 km, cheers, lakonan (kot?) , and lain2 lagilah. But sayang the seniors mcm agak malu dengan juniors, so diorg mcm x berapa sporting and gila-gila sangat on that day. But nevertheless, we had fun :DD

 

Effa, Fiza and Iman

 Torpedo's girls (Juniors 2012/2013) 2 missing in action

 Kak Sidah, Kak Najwa and Fiza

 Almost all Torpedo's Girls

Captain (Kak Qilah) & Kak Hanis (yg tgh baring)

Our cheers :

Torpedo! Are you readyyy?

Woot! Woot!

ARE YOU READYYY?!

WOOT! WOOT!

Swing Badda Baddaaaaa

Swing Badda Badda Swing Badda Baaaddaaa,

      Swing Badda Badda Swing! Swing! Swing!

Ok, tu je cheers kitorg. Simple kan? Haha 

The F?

Yes, today I'm frustrated. Why? Because of SOFTBALL!

My batting skill still sucks. Sucks BIG TIME. Out of 12 balls, I've only managed to hit 3 balls. 3 EFFING BALLS!

And then, there's the seniors. When SUKMUM is around the corner, their attitude are starting to change. Now it's not all fun and games. It's a tournament. The pressure is starting to falling in non-stop. I hate when I'm under pressure.

I think starting next training, I've got to put my game-face on. No more games, no more jokes. Just me, a glove and a ball. It's time to change

PLAY BALL!

Today, I have a softball training at 8.30 am. But due to my eagerness, I went to the court at 8 am and started warming up.

I was so excited because since it's monsoon season, our training had to be cancelled and this was our chance to polish our skills. Anyway, the reason why I was soooo excited is because I can go crazy going on a day without softball. Call me koya, I don't care. I LOVE SOFTBALL! So, (nak ckp dlm bahasa melayu lah pulak) cuba bayangkan dalam seminggu tu, 2 hari je dpt training including hari ni. All my softball friends (and me) dah start gila meroyan dah sbb rindu nk main softball. Nampak x ketaksuban kitorg? Hahaha

Our coach/captain, a senior, lets call her Captain, have placed me on first base! I was like, say whaaaa-- ? Payah kottt nak main first base sbb kena pndai/cekap/hebat tangkap bola. Selain catcher, first base mmg wajib kena refleks yg cepat & boleh stretch. Ok, I admit I think my specialty is on throwing. Not catching. Saya selalu sangat terlepas bola, that's why I'm not confident enough to think that I can be a good first baseman. Nk try nego face-to-face dgn Captain, saya mcm x brp berani. Hehe. So, lastly I contacted her through FB :

 

(Notice that it took her an hour to reply my message. Haha)  Nampak x kepercayaan and keyakinan dia kat aku? Seriously, I don't know how some people can believe in us when we ourselves can't. I langsung xde keyakinan pada diri, tup tup tengok, dia yang senior, berexperience, captain and EX-FIRST BASEMAN for our college, yakin pada kita. So, nak xnak terpaksalah amik position tu. I just hope that I won't disappoint her and my teammates.

 

 

Gambar yang 1st tu just segala comment yang kitorg post and the 2nd one saya zoom comment Captain. Dia reply mcm tu sbb saya tanya mcm mana nk lebihkan training so that kitorang boleh improve. But, saya perasan, yang saya perasan je lah kan, dia suka cakap "Kau boleh main" Maybe dia nak up kan semangat kitorang kot sbb time tu kitorg mcm feeling agak down sbb tak tau mcm mana nak main sehebat budak lelaki. And one more thing, saya mcm x brp nk faham apa maksud dia "Kental sikit tau :)" Maybe maksud dia "Be tough" kot. Hmmmm... Ntahlah. Tu kena tanya dia

So Far, So Goooood

Okay, the title says it all.

Alhamdulilah sejak msuk UM ni, everything has been GREAT! For the first time in my life, saya rasa aktif sangat. Bukan mcm masa kat convent & matriks dulu. Asyik passive je. Bukan saya nak jadi passive, tapi selalunya diorg suka pilih orang yang dah berpengalaman atau popular. So, untuk orang macam saya ni, dah lah x berpengalaman, x popular plak tuh! tu yang saya senang kene reject. Hehe

Now, I'm proudly can say that I'm an athlete. Haha. But bukanlah atlet yang pro. Setakat player for softball je puuunnn. Tu pun amateur. Dulu time sekolah, memang saya pernah masuk club softball sbb saya dari dulu suka tengok orang main baseball. So, since baseball and softball are pretty much the same, saya pun trylah masuk. Sekali bila dah masuk, sama je klau x masuk club tu. Diorg jarang buat perjumpaan and sekali je tolong ajarkan kitorg main, but tu pun x detail sangat. Tak tau lah maybe sbb time saya x cukup knowledge lagi ke apa (maybe skg dh ok kowt) but memang macam xde apa-apa aktiviti pun. So, masa form 2 saya pun tukarlah club lain and bla bla bla ....

Alhamdulilah, sekarang saya and budak-budak 1st year yang lain, dah diterima masuk ke softball KK3 iaitu Kolej Kediaman Tuanku Kurshiah. WOOHOOOOO!!! ( Super Super, Third! Third! ). Semangaaaatttt -.-

Anyway, - yang bestnya, seniors kat sini tolong ajarkan kitorg drp 0 to errmm... something. Pendek kata diorg baguslah sbb bagi peluang kat kitorg and serious nak ajar kitorg main softball untuk mewakili SUKMUM (Sukan antara KK UM)

Secondly, alhamdulilah saya dapat roommates and kawan-kawan yang best-best kat sini! Eventhough ramai kawan saya from Bioinfomatics but that doesn't stop me from being friends with them

Thirdly and most importantly, I've got a scholarship from JPA! Ya Allah, memang bersyukur gila lah time tu sbb x sangka nak dpt scholarship. BUT - klau nk scholarship tu, kena maintain dpt above 3.7 (mampuih *.*)

And lastly, alhamdulilah saya dapat banyak tawaran untuk jadi AJK untuk kolej! Weeeeeeeee

P/S : Saya pun dapat Palapes. Hehe

U-Never-Study

Hello there! Oppss... I mean, Assalamualaikum :)

Yes, last week adalah UM's orientation week. It was both tiring and fun! At first, sorang-sorang PM (Pembantu Mahasiswa) muka nak ketaaaattt je. But at the end of the week, barulah semua bertukar jadi friendly. Best lah O-week kat UM ni, maybe sbb tak banyak sangat taklimat kowt macam kat matriks dulu. Macam-macam pengalaman kat sana, antaranya :

- Buat cheers
- Kena marah
- Kena denda half-squat
- Asyik berlari sampai boleh rasa denyutan nadi kat muka
- Lampu toilet ditutup masa aku sorang-sorang je kat dalam tandas
- Tak sempat mandi (perfume dijadikan pengganti)
- Hilang suara
- Lutut rasa ketat sampai nak rukuk pun kena perlahan

But, no regrets. This kind of experience is what makes the memories so sweet. And during this week, benda yang paling cepat habis ialah perfume and deodorant. Sbb nak cover bau busuk yang ada pada badan and baju. Haha.


Starting last Monday, I officially became a UM student. Yipeee! Alhamdulilah :)

Fate or Desire

Today's post is about getting something that you want eventhough it seems like the whole universe is against you!

I have a friend who's dying to be a med student. But unfortunately she didn't get what she want. Instead, she got a totally opposite course which she despise (why would she choose that course in the first place is something that i'll never figure out )

Anyway, if it was me, I would just take the offered course because I believed that Allah have arrange something better for us. But this friend of mine, she wouldn't take no for an answer. She apply a medic course which requires her to go for an interview. Eventhough she hates interview, but for her dream course, she just went along with it. And she managed to pull it off! She got accepted to a top certified university that are famous for its medical studies. Her hardwork does paid off!

And my point here is that, how can somebody be so sure about what he/she wanted? Up until now, I'm lost. I don't know what I want, I don't know what I'm good at and I have no clue about what I'm gonna be. You see, I'm a person who likes what other people have. In other words, I'M A FAKE. I only want what they have because I don't know what I want. I'm the type who has to experience/experiment with things in order to determine whether I like it or not.

I hope someday I'll figure out who I am

The Perfect Day

I just had the Perfect Day ever!

Firstly, because this morning I've passed my QTI driving test

Secondly,

Tadaaaa....
I've got into UM. Well, actually both UM and USM. But I choose UM. Yeay! ( Alhamdulilah )

and Lastly, I've spent a quality time with my loving family :)

but most of all, I felt like finally I have made my parents proud :')

BEST FRIDAY EVER!!!

Assalamualaikum :)

Whazzuuuppp everybody. Haha. Tajuk mcm baik tp tgk intro post terus whazzup. Apa kes? :P

Well, hello blog. Lama tidak ketemu. Sorry.. before this I have no laptop. So cannot update maa. Haha. The good news is I've bought a laptop

Yeay me! Its Inspiron 14r from Dell. Eventhough x sehebat mana, but I'm grateful because at least now I have my own laptop. Yipee! :D

So.... errrmmm... sorry, I have no idea right now. Maybe laterrr. Toodeelss :)

FRIENDS

I miss my KMPh friends!!! So damn much. Hope I can see you guys again :'(

ALHAMDULILAH

The title says it all! Alhamdulilah... alhamdulilah..... ALHAMDULILAH

Today, 5th April 2012, Thursday
My long heartache has cured :D   I've talked to my friend and we discussed some things that we have kept for so long. And now, we're good :)

I don't know maybe it was a sign from Allah, but this morning i had a dream and it woke me up.It was about my friend. And thanks to Nabiqqah, now i've mend my broken relationship with ze friend. Theeeee :DD

Somebody That I Used to Know

" You didn't have to cut me off
Make it like it never happened and that we were nothing
And I don't even need your love
But you treat me like a stranger and that feels so rough "

This is for you. Yes, YOU. The person who made me hate myself everyday. Look, i'm sorry that i did what i did to you. Its just that last week was a terrible week for me. A TERRIBLE ONE INDEED. Eventhough i don't have the courage to face you and apologize, but, please... please look at me and see how sorry i am :( you are one of my good friend here and i don't wanna end this semester without talking to you.

And to my roommates, i'm sorry that i'm not comfortable with y'all. I do realize that it is not normal but i just can't help it. We just don't seem to get along. I'm sorry that we don't have any chemistry


"im not salahkan my roomate.saya suka mereka tapi memang nature masing2."

" sakit beb bila ada orang dalam bilik yang sama tapi tak cakap sepatah pun :'(  "

" ifa, saya ta gaduh la dengan roomate, just memang nature kiteorang memang ta rapat dan cakap banyak.bila dengar orang lain galak2,sayu gila hati.why roomate i tak macam ni?"

That's what she wrote on her blog. I'm very terribly sorry Siti. I know that i'm not a good roommate, but if you've realised, i am trying to be a good one everyday. EVERY SINGLE DAY. I too, felt this way. Sometimes I don't know why we can't just get along. I always envied my friends who are close with their roommates that their classmates. I mean, come on. We SHOULD be more comfortable with our roommates that classmates, right?

and one more thing,

"malam ni duduk sorang2 kat meja buat math then tiba2 rasa nak pergi toilet, toilet 1 aras tengah baiki so terpaksa naik tingkat atas,kena lalu tangga yang menghadap tasik yang super duper scary bila blok sunyi sepi,toilet pulak kosong...nak ajak roomate? ada sorang ni tapi tengah tidur,takkanlah nak kejut semata2 minta teman pergi toilet.sungguh tak rasional."

I really think that the 'roommate' she's talking about, is me. So, dear roommates, klau malam-malam tu rasa mcm nk terkencing, tolonglah bagitau atau kejut. Saya x kisah pun klau korg kacau aku tidur sbb kat blok ni, mmg bahaya klau kita keluar bilik sorg-sorg waktu malam. Nnti tetiba terserempak dgn pencuri. Mana x naya

k, so i think this is for today. so, sayonara :)

UPS

Well, as the title says it all. Now, I'm sitting for ups here in kmph. Yesterday was bi and physics paper. I was happy for English paper but for physics I was down a little.

Today, it was maths and bio. And Alhamdulilah maths was pretty okay than before this. But bio ..... Aiyakk! Manyak susah lorrhh

So, now i'm just wanna relax and play the Lazy Song for my theme song. That's about it. See ya!

English carnival

Last Saturday, KMPh has organise an English carnival. My eng lecturer ask us to join the carnival as she will deduct the participance for eng marks. So, it is compulsory.

So, here's some pics

Chaos!

Hey guys. Assalamualaikum... Sorry for not been able to update this blog. Well, lately since my class got our original maths tutorial's lecturer, everything is in chaosssss.

For the past few weeks, I've been in a mess. I started to sleep late at night everyday. The earliest is at 1 am. Cool raaaighttt?? -,-

I've got such a packed schedule, so no wonder it has been a hectic week indeed. With all these lecturers starts giving all sorts of exercise, mmglah kami x perlu rehat kan?

So, when my mum calls, I don't have a heart to tell her that I'm busy. And thus, I'll make time for her because for me, I have all the time in the world for that superlady ;)

Anyway, that's all for now. Thx for reading :D

Loving it

I SERIOUSLY LOVE THIS PIC! :DD

New Year

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

Happy 1st January 2012 to you guys :D
May this year will be your most joyful year so far. Frankly speaking, actually I have a bad feeling about this year. But I'll keep my hopes up and only hoping for the best

Anyway, happy happy HAPPY NEW YEAR TO Y'ALL
GOD BLESS