Should I?

Should I try? Should I try? Should I try the try-out?

But I'm still in my phobia state. I don't know whether I should try to join them. But heart says yes, but my mind says no.

Especially after what had happened on last Saturday, on SUKMUM, I don't think I could handle that kind of feeling again

But I really, REALLY do want to polish my skills. I want to learn. I want to be better than before. I want to be really good at something. I want to be great at something! I WANT TO DISCOVER MY NATURAL TALENT

My fear is that by the time I'll realize it, it will be too late. Like softball :(