Stay Strong, Ainul

Sumpah aku rasa nak menangis je lately! Tak tau nak luahkan kat mana.

Parents? I won't be seeing them in a month. Sisters? I don't feel that they could keep my secrets. Friends? ..................

Serious. Aku rasa mcm nak sakit jiwa. Nak call Iqqah, aku segan. Nak call Su, dia tak reply whatsapp aku. Tak tau lah nak buat mcm mana.

Kali ni punya stress, aku dapat rasakan yang aku boleh jadi mentally ill. Asal balik kolej je mesti emo. Asal malam-malam je, mesti nak meroyan kat twitter.

But that's the thing. I can no longer make twitter as my diary or psychiatrist. There's too many followers. Tanak lah plak nnti diorg rasa annoyed plak ngan aku

Kadang-kadang rasa mcm nak ketuk kepala plak kat dinding.

And frankly speaking, I'm tired of all this BS. Aku mcm dah lupa mcm mana nk jadi bahagia. I just rasa happy klau kat class je. But during weekends, klau tak balik rumah, seriously tak tau nk buat apa. And time tu lah dahi aku secara tak langsung akan berkerut.

ok, ni je post for tonight. See ya later