(cont..)

It started wayyy back then.

It started when I'm in kindergarten :

- I don't have many friends when I'm in kindergarten. I was 4 years old back then. I tried to make friends, but they all seemed like doesn't like me. The way they looked at me, like somewhat, I'm a weirdo. Of course, we were kids back then, they didn't know what they were doing. And like any other kid, I'm an optimistic. I don't care what they think of me, as long as I have someone to hang out with.

(During this time, I didn't take it seriously because I have the love of my family. Especially my mum)

- And I did. Well, at least when I'm 6 years old, I've finally managed to get some friends. And they were my best friends back then.

When I'm in middle school :

- My glory days were when I'm in standard 1 - standard 3. I was very happy during this time. VERY HAPPY. I have 4 best friends, my academic was quite okay, my family was...... I feel happy with my family.

- Then, standard 4 came. My friends and I had to split classes. We weren't as close as before. I've tried to make new friends, but still, can't compare to my friendship with them.

High school :

- A normal girl. Just a typical Malay girl founded some friends, A GOOD FRIENDS.
(this part is quite long, so I'll just skip it)

Matrics :

-During the 1st sem, I was quite miserable. My 1st time being away from my family, my home. Can't quite fit in with my roommates. No friends in college. (That's why I hated college meeting/activities). All of my roommates were always with their friends, and left me alone.

- I've cried and cried and cried. Got no one to turn to. I felt embarrased to tell the story to my mum. Until one day she called me, and I've bursted into tears coz I can't hold it any longer. That's the 1st time that she heard me crying. The 1st time she knew I wasn't happy, that I was in misery.

- 2nd sem, is wayy better than the 1st one because I've finally got to know my classmates even better. The more I hanged out with them, the more I love them! We were inseparable. Always went to cubicle together, spent time together. Lets just say, they are the best thing that I have since I was in KMPh. This is one of the time where I've feel loved by my friends since a very long time.

Uni :

- (I'll just leave this alone for a time being)





Even though I still keep in touch with my matrics' friends, but its not the same as having a conversation with them in real life. Yes, we do whatsapp-ed, tweets, wall each other. But it's just not the same as meeting them. In social network I can't feel their love, but in real life, then only I can.

As for my family, I don't want to talk much bout them....... But long story short, I don't feel their love like I used to.